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Thursday, July 17th, 2008
4:45 pm
Ladders and Hips: An Open Letter to the Boys in My Life
38 pages, b&w, 1/2 size (2 oz) $3.00

Kyla!'s open letter to the boys in her life. It's a really honest look at her history with sexual assault, cutting, eating disorders and suicide. It's really personal, and at times painful to read. But there's a lot to identify with inside, like drinking to be loved, and then not being able to justify saying no, and wanting to be seen as person and not just a girlfriend. She says it's the hardest thing she's ever had to write and I believe her.

Friday, April 18th, 2008
12:42 am
(posting for deasays:

I’m a 19-year-old college student/zinester who splits her time between New York and Ohio. The following is a call-out for a zine anthology I am curating on sexism in punk, activist, and radical communities. This is an issue that has come up in my scenes and communities and I have heard about in the scenes and communities of others.

Scene Not Heard Zine
Sexism in Punk, Activist and Radical Communities

Is accepting submissions . . .

Some ideas (by no means limited to):
personal stories
art/creative writing/poetry
histories and institutional memories (stories about your scene/community)

body image
sexism and sexual harassment at activist gatherings
standing up to the patriarchy through art, organizing, music, zines etc.
violence/sexualized violence towards all genders
punk music and mosh pits: dismantling and reinforcing gender, patriarchy, sexualized violence, and expectations of manhood
sexism and sexual harassment in the activist community that formed in New Orleans after Katrina
‘manarchism’: who has access and who sets the group agenda
radicalism as a means of empowerment vs. scene cred dictating values and new social norms

I am looking for a wide-range of viewpoints and opinions. Queer/trans individuals, people of color, women and men and everyone and everything in between!

Email submissions/questions/ideas to: scenenotheard.zine@gmail.com
Please get them in by: July 1st

Copy and paste this everywhere you wish! Get the word out!
Friday, November 30th, 2007
3:15 am
things have changed a lot in my life since i decided to get over my eating disorder. i've taken enough time off from the real world to change my perspective, and i am now trying to devote my time to things other than trying to reach a magic number that would kill me if i ever got there.

i'm from Nebraska. a mid-western state that is almost in the exact middle of the united states. i've been into the punk philosophy since i was about 14, and i'm 21 now. i took some time off from caring about anything, other than food, for about three years, due to anorexic trappings. i'm a high school graduate, a college student, i have two part time jobs. for some reason, there isn't much more to say about me after that. last winter i became very involved in the punk 'scene' again. i started reading, and writing... trying to come up with something... some way to get my ideals out there. i spent a little time looking for other punks. as far as i know, i am the only girl in this city that affiliates herself with punk. i wanted to know if any one had anything to say about community. by nature, i am a collectivist. i like to work in groups. i like to do things in a communal fashion. i've decided i want to start up a zine (as far as i know, there are none in this city). eventually, i want to own a business (venue/bar/record store). at this moment, our music scene is on life support. there are two venues that function on a constant basis. there is one more that is open on sundays. after that there isn't a lot to say.

what are things like where everyone else is from?
i'm beginning to feel like there is no point in trying here. i feel absolutely let down by the scene. i need to know that things are different somewhere else. that there is at least a little hope. give me whatever you guys can.

-elle from the wasteland
Monday, October 22nd, 2007
3:28 pm
 So I already posted my intro, and I thought I'd share a couple things I've been struggling with lately.

I'm getting married in like almost a month.  I'm trying really hard to be laid back about it because I believe it's the marriage, not the wedding, that's important.  The truth is I'm terrified that I'm going to be hideous on my wedding day.  I try so hard to hold myself up to these high feminist ideals I have, but I just can't do it because I just feel ugly all the time.  I don't wear make-up, I rarely shave my legs, everything about me is pretty au naturale and I just feel so incredibly conscious about it.  I want to be so skinny and toned an gorgeous in my dress, and I want to have flawless skin and look perfect.  Then I want to just say fuck-it why should anyone really care, I'm going to be beautiful from the inside out.

There is just so much pressure to be beautiful, have a christian (barf) wedding, and (above all) be lady-like.  I hate it, and I wish I didn't care about it so fucking much.  I keep setting myself up for these crazy triggers and coming up with these hairbrained ideas for diets and ways to loose weight.  I was anorexic for so long I don't know how to lose weight normally without expecting the same results.  Sometimes I feel like I don't even need to lose weight because I'm at an ideal number.  I just don't know.  Even though I've been out of recovery for almost 3 years I still can't shake these thoughts and feelings.  I don't want to relapse.  Before it was so private and personal that nobody was hurt, now I would be hurting other people who love me. 
Sunday, October 21st, 2007
12:08 am
Hello lovelies!
So, my name is Alison (as I said before in my fancy-pants mod introductory post), I'm twenty - twenty one in like 40 days! - and I'm a senior at the University of Michigan. I'm currently diagnosed/meeting criteria for BN, and have past co-diagnoses of AN(II) and BN, as well as a second diagnosis of dysthymia.

Look, someone on LJ who wants to talk about herself!Collapse )
Thursday, October 18th, 2007
8:43 pm
Lightening Introduction.
My name is Elle. I am 21 years old, as of about three weeks ago.
I would consider myself an undiagnosed ED-NOS.
I've been involved in the punk scene in my town since I was about 14.
My disordered eating has been around that long too.

It was strange to find this community, right at the exact time I needed other females to connect with anyway. But now, at least from the same sub-culture I would say I belong too.
It's good.
Monday, October 15th, 2007
6:51 pm
This community came at the exact right time... I don't really use LJ that much these days, but I am around.

I guess I'd technically be called ED-NOS; I struggle with obsessive restriction and distorted body image beyond the normal. I go through waves of knowing that it's bullshit and that I need to do something about it and periods of not wanting to give it up. It's especially hard to deal with because, as an anarchist and a radical, I feel like this shouldn't effect me (though this is silly, since I have the same upbringing as most kids). I feel like a failure twice over: on the one hand, I feel like a failure that I eat as much as I do and weigh as much as I do, and on the other I feel like a failure for suffering from this at all, since I can plainly see how stupid and capitalism-created the whole thing is.

I don't really post in my journal much anymore, but know that this is a brilliant idea for a community.

PS. I don't know if any of you have seen this article, but I find it really helpful when I'm feeling down about balancing my eating disorder and my politics: http://www.semagazine.com/issue3/eatingdisorders.php
5:34 pm
My name is Megan, and I'm 22.

1:51 pm
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Current Mood: calm
Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
12:43 pm
Mod Post!
Hey everyone, and welcome to punk_eds!

I'm one of your moderators, Alison, along with therearenofacts and veggiefat.  This community is designed, essentially, to shed light on the existence and prevalence of eating disorders within punk (and offshoot, possibly?) communities.  This is a topic that is obviously relevant and of importance to all of the members, so allow me to make an introductory post with several things I think are worth taking note of for your own personal reference.

1) First and most important, be respectful of everyone here.  I'd like to think - and hope everyone here is in agreement with me - that one of the definitive concepts of being punk is that you're more open than the average person to new ideas and beliefs which perhaps are in direct contradiction with your own, and that you are tolerant of others and their thoughts.  In other words, play nice and don't go around acting unnecessarily inflammatory like a lame-ass troll.  Debates and arguments are great... I don't want anyone here to ever feel obligated to conform to any opinions or beliefs held by community members, but don't be a bitch about it.  Opinions are like assholes, we all have them.

2) Try to keep all posts relevant to this community.  There are a million other communities where you can make posts with nothing but daily calories counts, posts containing a running play-by-play of menial shit in your life, rants about your parents sucking, etc.  Not to say that this stuff doesn't belong here, but it shouldn't ever constitute the totality of your post, or else this community will just become another one in the fifty bajillion LJ ED communities already in existence.  And we're more specialer than them other guys, mmkay?

3) Share your personal experiences relating to your eating disorder/food issues and its relation to your punk identity, as well as thoughts, ideas, questions you may find arise about said relationship.  If we want to be a part of a dynamic, fun community then it's certainly up to all of us to keep the community alive by raising new talking points and offering feedback to the issues and thoughts brought to light by posters.

4) This ties directly into Rule 1 - don't bash people for their preferences.  This means everything from sexual preferences to bands people say they like.  I assume this is something that can go without being said, but I'd like to remind everyone anyways, because elitism and condescending attitudes are very typical of communities like this one.  It's a sad fact that it will probably be inevitable to keep at least a few twelve year old "omgzzz i luv pete wentz n mah disorder mia" type posts from occurring here, but if a mature and intelligent nature of posting is normative in this forum, then these types of posters will probably not find the responses they are looking for and will opt to seek them elsewhere.

5) Last but not least - HAVE FUN.  This community is an amazing idea of veggiefat's and I hope everyone here gets a shit-ton out of it.

Love you all my dearies, and get postin'!
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